Guy and Girl

So there's this guy and girl at university. Lets call them Steve and Lynne.
Now Steve and Lynne had this attraction from the beginning, and inevitably it ended up in a relationship.

But then, something happened. Steve is ignoring Lynne and I see quite clearly that she is upset as she tries to get his attention, but to no avail.

Now, they don't even speak and I wonder what could have gone wrong?

Not that any of this really matters to me, what got my attention thought was the fact that Steve is extremely attractive and Lynne is a real beauty. They were a great looking couple.
Now I'm thinking, whom of the two would I prefer to date?

Steve is tall, with light brown hair and soft, hazel eyes. Lynne has long, dark hair with deep dark eyes. Haha, well it probably won't happen either way, it's just really interesting that I cannot decide who I like best...

The Beginning

I never would have thought that I would have this kind of blog, this kind of thoughts, but I guess sometimes the course of our lives turns in ways completely unexpected, we may even be afraid. That’s how I felt, afraid. Then the confusion set in and is still silently lingering in the back of my mind. At first I wanted to steer away when I were thinking about another woman, but not anymore. It is as if I have accepted it and now I even enjoy it. I like to analyze my thoughts when thinking of or seeing another woman. Though not too deeply, I am not that confident about it yet. But I must admit it’s kind of nice.

I have this silly suspicion that people can read my thoughts, so I usually stop myself from thinking about these things when I am with other people. I guess it’s a good thing, because I have caught myself smiling. How silly must that look?!
I’m not sure why I am smiling, I wish I knew. But just the fact of having something to smile about is good.

Where did this all start? I don’t know. The thought just kind of entered my mind and at first I pushed it aside, but it grew stronger and stronger and now I can certainly not ignore it anymore.
I think the first trigger was a You Tube movie I saw where two women kissed. I thought at the time that I would find it repulsive, but I admit I was curious, why else would I have watched it? Anyway, so I watched it, more than once. Then I watched another movie like the first. It got me thinking and wondering…

I guess there's a lot of things which should have raised my suspicion, but it just never did. Maybe I knew in the back of my mind and I just didn't want to accept or aknowledge it.

Well, I guess this is some kind of confession to myself, and it feels kind of good. It’s nice to put it out there in the open. It’s nice.